Gosh… 30 Years ~ #SoCS

Hello everybody out there how are you doing? I hope you enjoy your day and if not then I sent you a heartfelt hug!!!

I can’t believe it is 30 years since the Berlin Wall came down.

I remember 1989 very well. We in West Germany were watching people from East Germany leave their country since August. I think it was January when we first heard of the Monday Demonstrations which eventually led to the end of the German Democratic Republic which was the communist part of Germany until 1991 I think.

We were scared and excited. Scared because the Cold War so easily could have become a hot one but luckily it just ended. I was 19 when that happened. One of the most significant experiences in my life. That is why I do not like building walls.

The Berlin Wall separated families and friends. My grandma was a refugee from the East a couple of years after WWII ended. She left her friends and family behind and even after it was possible to visit the East it was a big thing to go and visit them.

Grafiti on Berlin Wall, photo by Schaefersystem via Pixabay

You came out of Western Germany and had to drive through a stretch of no-mans land. Then your passport was taken away for checking and your car was thoroughly searched by soldiers often with weapons on them. You got your passport back with a stamp that you are allowed to go on. Oh, and you had to apply for a visa months in advance. It was one of the most scary experiences I had in my life. I have no understanding for people who believe in walls and borders. To me they are the root of all evil. Just because someone is born somewhere else doesn’t make him or her less worth supporting. When it comes down to it we all  just want a better life. And the longer I live the more it seems to me borders and walls only help the rich to make more money. Communism might be dead but the class fight is alive and kicking in my opinion. But what do I know?????

I think it is more important than ever to remember November 9th, 1989. To remember the hope and positivity we felt then to not lose hope in these dark times of politicians who want to separate us from each other.

Thirty years ago

Walls and opponents crumbled

Is darkness coming?

Have a great weekend!!!!


I hadn’t planned to connect this post with Linda’s “Stream of Consciousness Saturday” but hey one word fits the prompt and there are so many brilliant posts taking part that I just have to send you over to her post: The Friday Reminder and Prompt for #SoCS Nov. 9/19

XP, XR and other Ex’s on Bee’s #SoCS

Hi Linda, please do not apologise for posting the prompt late. Your life is dotted with obstacles which would have stopped me from blogging a long time ago. What do I want to say? Thanks for SoCS. You rock lady and those brownies are on the way if you need them πŸ™‚ Hugs

So, what has Linda, the mistress of curious, funny, interesting and thoughtful Stream of Consciousness prompts, challenged us with this weekend?

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is β€œxp.” Use it as a word, or find a word with β€œxp”in it. As always, use any way you’d like. Enjoy!

You can find the prompt post here “The Friday Reminder and Prompt for #SoCS April 27/19“. Please head over and say hello to this wonderful crazy community and find more enticing posts to read.

SoCS badge by Pamela, at https://achronicalofhope.com/

SoCS badge by Pamela, at https://achronicalofhope.com/

The first thing that came to my mind was “Windows XP“. Can anyone remember it? Oh, wow how far have we come since? I don’t think it was their finest hour and made many check out the emerging Linux operating systems. Or maybe they weren’t emerging? Maybe many didn’t check them out? Well, I did. Dabbled a little with Ubuntu and Fedora which I both liked but in those days they did not necessarily give me the chance to play games I loved. So I had both Windows and Linux on my computer and that wasn’t good for its working space. My goodness, no one could bear the slowness of computers in those days today. We are in such a hurry nowadays… Don’t expect I have any idea what I am talking about by the way. I just like to try out things that are not mainstream.

Does mainstream easily lead to XR?

Probably not but I go there anyway πŸ˜‰

Oh, you haven’t heard of XR yet?

XR stands for “Extinction Rebellion” a movement of conscientious humans who do not want to put up with the inactivity of the world’s governments anymore when it comes to climate change. According to scientists, it’s happening and the change towards “NO RETURN” and “EXTINCTION” is in roundabout 10 to 12 years.

Take it in:

If we keep living how we do now our climate will change so much in 10 or 12 years time that our civilisation is going to break down. That is about the same time between Windows XP and Windows 10. Our children won’t be able to have enough to eat, travel and have all the luxuries that we take so easily for granted.

You think that is scaremongering?


But do you really want to risk it?

The way I see it is:

If it is scaremongering and I change my lifestyle I make a fool of myself but I do not lose much else. I can live with that.


If it is NOT scaremongering and I do NOT change my lifestyle I lose everything.

For me, that is a no brainer!

video credit: TEDx Talks via YouTube

Now, I by no means change my lifestyle as much as I should be changing it and I can hear daughter of another mother’s reasoning: “The big corporations know about it since years and don’t do anything!” She still feels we need to do something but there is a sense of defeatedness in this statement, isn’t it?

That is where “Extinction Rebellion” see its importance: Making the bigwigs in politics and economy change their actions. Well, making them act really!

They have 10 working principles:


1. We have a shared vision of change

2. We set our mission on what is necessary

3. We need a re-generative culture

4. We hopefully challenge ourselves, and this toxic system

5. We value reflection and learning

6. We welcome everyone, and every part of everyone into Extinction Rebellion

7. We actively mitigate for power

8. We avoid blaming and shaming

9. We are a non-violent movement

10. We are based on autonomy and de-centralization

I have watched several of their “faces” or “leaders” on TV since Easter Week when they started their worldwide action for climate and I have to say that I am very impressed with them. Politicians, Journalists and business leaders try to get them into a defensive stance with saying, for example, they would make everyday peoples life difficult and “alienate” many who are on their side with their actions (Extinction Rebellion in London). But none of the rebels take those peoples bait. I am in awe me being such a human who boils over rather easily when challenged.

video source: Extinction Rebellion via YouTube

What I like about the movement is the fact it’s not only about climate change it is about changing our civilisation towards fairness for all and not just a few and giving all of us the chance but also the responsibility to act for our society. That I think is the main problem why we do not have a fair system where all get what they need: We do not feel responsible to do something and make time to help decide where we want to go with our lives. It’s the politician’s job or the councillors or …. “I can’t do anything” is what most people think. That is what we are taught.

But history shows us continuously that that is not the case: It is 30 years ago that the wall came down, where everyday people changed a system which worked with suppression and violence against its citizens. It is 8 years ago that everyday people brought governments down in the middle east and let’s not forget the civil rights movement, Indian Independence Movement and the fight for democracy in the 19th century.

It is not the bigwigs who change history. It is everyday man or woman who does and it is about time we take that responsibility seriously.

The best husband (Jeremy Clarkson voice) in the world and I have joined “Extinction Rebellion” and I have signed up to help more but need to contact them further for what to do. Besides that, we are finding our way closer to a zero waste lifestyle and I will use this blog to inform you about the movement and what is at stake. And I try to rouse you to do something and give up the idea that you are powerless.

What you chose is up to you.

I respect your choices because it is not up to me to do otherwise. One principle of Extinction Rebellion is to challenge themselves to change a toxic system and their respectful and loving way towards those who think differently is an inspiration for me. I aspire to be the same and that is certainly a challenge for me. Just look at my posts about Brexit πŸ™‚

So, if you are interested here are the links where you can find out more:

World Map of XR Chapters: https://tinyurl.com/XRchapters
DONATE? https://fundrazr.com/Global_XR
Join Us: https://Rebellion.Earth/contact/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/ExtinctionR #ExtinctionRebellion
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Website: https://Rebellion.Earth
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ExtinctionR…
Climate Factsheet for Rebels: https://Rebellion.Earth/the-climate-f…
Rebellion Overview Document: https://goo.gl/91cFn4
International Signup: https://XRebellion.org/
Southampton: https://www.facebook.com/XRSouthampton/
Bristol: https://twitter.com/XRBristol
Sheffield: https://www.facebook.com/Extinction-R…
Lancashire: https://www.facebook.com/XRlancs
Frome: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Glasgow: https://www.facebook.com/XRGlasgow
Ireland: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Scotland: https://www.facebook.com/XRScotland
Sweden: https://twitter.com/XR_Sweden
France: https://www.facebook.com/xrParis/
Germany: https://twitter.com/ExtinctionR_DE
Netherlands: https://twitter.com/NLRebellion
Denmark: https://twitter.com/ExtinctionRDK
Denmakr: https://www.facebook.com/groups/20207…
India: https://xr-india.weebly.com/
Australia: https://AusRebellion.Earth/
North Qld: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
SE Qld: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
NorthernRivers: https://www.facebook.com/XRbundjalung
NSW: http://www.facebook.com/xrNSW
VIC: https://www.facebook.com/groups/xrVIC…
SA: https://www.facebook.com/xrAdelaide
WA: https://www.facebook.com/AusRebellionWA
New Zealand: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Nelson NZ: https://www.facebook.com/groups/XRnelson
USA: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
SF Bay Area: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Sacramento: https://www.facebook.com/Extinction-R…
Los Angeles: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
New York: https://www.facebook.com/Extinction-R…
Wash DC: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Boston: https://www.facebook.com/ExtRebMA/
Chicago: https://www.facebook.com/XRchicago/
Tampa: https://www.facebook.com/xrtampabay/
Central Kentucky: https://www.facebook.com/XRebelKY/
Savannah: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Austin: https://www.facebook.com/XRAustin/
Yellow Springs: https://www.facebook.com/groups/34179…
Grand Rapids: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Minneapolis: https://www.facebook.com/groups/50371…
Colorado: https://www.facebook.com/groups/28394…
Denver: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Wyoming: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Montana: https://www.facebook.com/extinctionre…
NewMexico: https://www.facebook.com/groups/58244…
Seattle: https://www.facebook.com/XRSeattle/?r…
Eugene: https://www.facebook.com/XREugene/
Bellingham: https://www.facebook.com/XRBellingham/
Hawaii: https://www.facebook.com/groups/extin…
Canada: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Alberta, Canada: https://www.facebook.com/groups/35689…
Cowichan Bay, BC, Canada: https://www.facebook.com/groups/74587…
British Columbia, Canada: https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Nova Scotia, Canada https://www.facebook.com/ExtinctionRe…
Howe Sound, British Columbia, Canada: https://www.facebook.com/Extinction-R…
Vancouver, BC, Canada: https://www.facebook.com/xrvanbc/
Ontario, Canada: https://www.facebook.com/extinctionre…
World Map of XR Chapters: https://tinyurl.com/XRchapters

I have no idea how I could lead to the other “Ex’s” becauseΒ the other “X’s” is just a song I really like right now πŸ™‚

Video Credit: P. Faith via YouTube

Have a lovely Saturday or whenever you might read this post. It is cold and raining where I am at the moment but you can’t imagine how happy I am about it. Not the cold but the rain. We had no prolonged period of rain for 12 months as the local news said recently and the soil in Norfolk, UK is rather dry. I could, of course, bang on about climate change again πŸ˜‰ but I won’t. I just let you know that our water butts in the garden are filling up nicely and our parsnips, onions and salad will survive another day πŸ™‚

You hang in there peeps in whatever challenges you are in right now and be sure you are in my thoughts and in prayers. You rock, are the world and I believe you are the difference you want to see in this world!

Happy blogging, reading and whatever else you are up to!

Selfie of Bee and Sherky

A belated #SoCS and on time #SLS are fab and on fire

Ah, peeps here I am and I am in a strange mood. It’s this sort of hanging in the air feeling where I am not in a bad mood but not in a good one either. It’s more “Am I bothered????”

Video Credit: BBC via YouTube

So the computer originally said no but I watched the Hungergames two days in a row (yes no 1 AND 2 to the dismay of the best husband (Jeremy Clarkson voice) in the world and Jim’s prompt for today’s “Song Lyric Sunday” is “Burn/Fire/Flame” and the Hungergames fans of you know where this is leading πŸ™‚

Video Credit: Alicia Keys via YouTube

I think both Alica Keys and Jennifer Lawrence are absolutely fab and believe you me “fab” is not a word in my vocabulary. I don’t think I ever used it. Even though I did feel rather fab when getting married to the above-mentioned hubby:


Bee in light green wedding gown looking like a Greek goddess


and I just realised that we got married in the year the first Hungergames and probably the above song came out: 2012! Yes, it was one of the years that the world was supposed to end ( can you remember? ) which would not be fab, would it?

SoCS badge by Pamela, at https://achronicalofhope.com/

SoCS badge by Pamela, at https://achronicalofhope.com/

But where are we?


“Girl On Fire”

She’s just a girl and she’s on fire
Hotter than a fantasy, lonely like a highway
She’s living in a world and it’s on fire
Filled with catastrophe, but she knows she can fly away

Ohhhh oh oh oh oh
She got both feet on the ground
And she’s burning it down
Ohhhh oh oh oh oh
She got her head in the clouds
And she’s not backing down

This girl is on fire…
This girl is on fire…
She’s walking on fire…
This girl is on fire…

Looks like a girl, but she’s a flame
So bright, she can burn your eyes
Better look the other way
You can try but you’ll never forget her name
She’s on top of the world
Hottest of the hottest girls say

Ohhhh oh oh oh
We got our feet on the ground
And we’re burning it down
Ohhhh oh oh oh oh
Got our head in the clouds
And we’re not coming down

This girl is on fire…
This girl is on fire…
She’s walking on fire…
This girl is on fire…

Everybody stares, as she goes by
‘Cause they can see the flame that’s in her eyes
Watch her as she’s lighting up the night
Nobody knows that she’s a lonely girl
And it’s a lonely world
But she gon’ let it burn, baby, burn, baby

This girl is on fire…

Description for visually impaired readers: green grass in the forefront with a blue flower to the right. A hedge and trees in the back with sunlight shining through. Purple writing saying “Song Lyric Sunday” diagonally from left to right.

This girl is on fire…
She’s walking on fire…
This girl is on fire…

Oh, oh, oh, oh ohhhhh oh oh oh ohhh oh oh oh ohhhh…

She’s just a girl and she’s on fire

Songwriters: Alicia Keys, Jeff Bhasker and Salaam Remi.

But don’t you feel that since 2012 the world at least as we knew it has ended? I definitely do and I also often feel like I walk on fire at times…

Never mind.

So back to the fab Alicia Keys and Jennifer Lawrence. I like Alicia’s music. To me, she is not only a fab musician but also a fab human who does her bit to change the lives of orphans and people in general. It is good share the good you got.

And I would love to be as outspoken as Jennifer when it comes to the problem’s women still face in this day and age when it comes to pay, opportunity and rights. Yes, I know a lot is changing since Mr Weinstein got caught at last but still lots to do ladies. We’ll get there, no doubt about that but it might need a little more time.

Ah, maybe one last word for the not Hungergames fans: The main character in the book played by Lawrence in the film is portrayed as “The girl on Fire” when she enters the Hungergames. Another character creates a dress for her which looks like it is on fire.

Video Source: The Hunger Gamz on YouTube

That’s for today. Hope you have a fab and not on fire Sunday!!!!!







#SoCS needs dough

*attention. Rude language that might offend some readers

I thought it was Groundhog Day:

I checked Linda’s blog and clicked on the SoCS post but didn’t register the date. The prompt asked about the last mail we received… d’oh oh no duh?!

Looks like the reader on the WP was a slight bit behind. So, what’s today’s prompt?

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is β€œdough/d’oh.” Use one, use both, use ’em any way you like. Enjoy!

SoCS badge by Pamela, at https://achronicalofhope.com/

SoCS badge by Pamela, at https://achronicalofhope.com/

So here’s the story:

I need some dough. No, not the sweet sticky stuff that adds the pounds on our hips. It would be nice to have some again but that’s a different story. This story is about Mary Berry.

You know the British Baking Queen? Of course, she had much more to teach the great British public after they left that exclusive club called EU. Good old recipes like bulking up white bread with sawdust or how to use reconstituted dried eggs in baking. She didn’t get the reputation of a national treasure for nothing.

The plan the EU Underground had hatched was sound: go in, show the images of Johnson, Farage and friends feasting on proper wine and cakes in Italy, Germany or wherever they made their escape to and get out.

No-one expected the Berry ninja moves. My goodness, that old dear could kick butt. Mine still stings. I came into the studio ready to shove the posters in front of the camera but Mary must have been tipped off. She charged at me like a chef on steroids and off I went into the wall. BERCOW!

Illustration of a yellow bang over which it says BERCOW!

Sorry, unfortunately, I have no reference where this comes from. I’ll put credits as soon as I find out.

When I came to she leaned over me grinning madly:” You little sh…. settled status slut you!” she hissed. β€œYou lot destroyed our great British baking tradition with your baguettes and bretzels and panettone. Noone…No-one can remember Horsebread or Iussell. It was time someone did something about that!”

I must have stared at her like a rabbit in front of the snake in the middle of my shredded posters because her eyes suddenly changed into purple glowing Erbolates and I didn’t move. Neither did any of the camera crew. They hid behind their equipment or ran.

β€œEU no 13 what’s up?” I heard in my earplug. That woke me. I pressed the Tusk security button and my head shot forward into her grinning face. I think I must have put the setting a little high. When I got up and checked, her head lolled backwards. She did not breathe. That’s when I saw the brave one. One ginger camera woman had her camera right in front of us and said triumphantly: ”That was life on tv! You won’t get away with this!”

How right she was. That was my death sentence from the EU Underground. Our first rule:” Utmost secrecy!” So I ran. And now I need some dough…


Sorry Mrs Berry, that you have become a victim of my anti-Brexit stream of consciousness. I have no idea where you stand on Brexit but I hope you’ll forgive me :-). I also assume you would not use foul language like I gave you. Again so sorry :-).


Please head over to Linda’s Prompt Post and check out the comments for more hilarious, serious and plain bonkers SoCS posts. You won’t regret it!!!!


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#SoCS is soulful or has a sole

Ah, the great lady of Stream of Consciousness has challenged us again:

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is β€œsoul/sole.” Use one, use both, use ’em any way you like. Enjoy!

Without further ado here is my contribution:

video credit: Amy Winehouse via YouTube

I swear I can hear Amy Winehouse singing over there in that little cove. Really? Soul Music? Was walking along the beach. My friend the jungle to my left and sister sea to my right. She looked so beautifully calm today. No grey or spray or wind gusts that blew me over like the first day I stepped out of the sea like Botticelli’s Venus. Hadn’t seen anyone since.Β  Made my way up the little path between a couple of palms that opened the view down towards the blue of the cove and… By my soul, I swear I expected Amy standing there in the middle with a microphone. Didn’t even question the fact that she was dead. Dead since when? Can’t remember. Just yesterday I heard a name called and turned around but there was no one. Just the gulls sailing along the sky and the waves washing up the beach. My friends would laugh at me if they’d see me with the bamboo stick in my hands. Had attached a string at the end that had washed up a couple of weeks ago. Never knew that shells can make such a good hook. Captain Hook? No that was something else but what? If only I could remember stuff. What was at the end of the sea? Does this place just fall over the edge or sail up into the sky? I remember sky and beach and sea, you know. But hey you aren’t there whoever you are. Am only talking to tortoises and gulls. Throaty noises I make. Smile. Yes, there was this sole yesterday. Never thought that old man showing me how to filet a flat fish could come in so handy. Who was he? That old man? Father? Maybe but what is a father? It was nice eating that sole. Didn’t taste like shoe sole at all. Giggle. Father? Can’t remember. But friends yes. Had many. We set off on a trip to somewhere and then nothing. No future no end. And the morning sun taunting me. Another day? Yes, getting up every day. Wash myself. Eat what I found the day before. It never gets cold. Good that. Walking out of the cave I made my home. It’s a little higher up than the beach. Beach gets flooded in stormy season. How long am I here? There is a stormy season and a calm season. Even stormy season isn’t cold just so damn damp. Slipping down the path to the beach in stormy season. But now it’s calm. Amy Winehouse still sings. Hear her. Tears dry on their own. What are tears? There is another voice. And..there…is…some… wood (?) swimming in the cove. Didn’t see it before. Now it comes into view around the bush.’..it’s…a boat. I remember. A boat. And there is someone. A woman. I remember “woman”. She waves at me. Shall I go? No, better not. I run. The other way. Back home. Panting. Falling in the sand. I hear Amy again… NO. Curling up in a ball. Rocking. Amy. Again and again Amy’s voice. A splash. Someone moving through water. Rocking. Just rocking. Forgetting. Rocking. A hand on my back: “Oh my god Ami, you poor soul, found you at last!”


This post takes part in Linda’s Stream of Consciousness Saturday. Please head over and find many more soulful posts in the comments. Please visit them all πŸ™‚ you are worth it!!!!

Thanks Linda!


SoCS bashes…

Linda has taunted us with a new prompt which is: Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is β€œabash/a bash/bash.” Use β€œabash,” or β€œbash” as a noun or a verb. Bonus points if you manage all three. Have fun!

(Please head over and find other bashful Stream of Consciousness posts in the comments!)

It does sound like fun and here is my contribution:

I’m on the prowl again.
Hanged up my business suit at home and let the full moon do its thing. It has been so long since I let my nature manifest in full. The energy surges through my body when the fur appears. There is a call from afar.Β  The enraging odour of a bash of innocents infiltrates my senses when I lose consciousness and only hear my howl.

Minutes later this creature is on the road down a winding path into the woods. It has chosen her home well. A lonely hilltop hut which has an ancient flair about it. The wood was worked when settlers first arrived and hasn’t seen a coating of colour in years. Deep red flakes off the square walls but the roof is always taken care off well.

Years ago she has made an unlikely alliance with the little ones living in her woods. She saved one of them and as soon as she leaves for her business they come surging in to bring spells and wood and nails into the right position.

But I am losing track of her. She is already down the slope full of ancient pines. Some of the quickentree bushes are broken by her agile body but the ivy knows to get out of her way when she is in full prowl mode. There is a little brook that meanders along the valley at the bottom of her territory. She stops for a moment. She moves her elegant body backwards so her front paws stretch out. A sigh escapes from somewhere. She stands up and listens, her nostrils open to detect anything coming her way: Danger, lust or pure revenge. It does not matter now.

They know to stay out of her way when the moonlight enhances her prowess like this. It happened that she bashed the head of one of her mates against the rocks when she was too passionate in mating. But her mating days are gone. It’s just no one knows this yet. And today was another matter at hand.

She prowls again. Someone dared to violate one of her sisters. Awareness of domestic violence for decades but for some nothing changes. And she does not care which form her sisters have: Girl, woman, crone, human, shapeshifter or animal when one of hers is violated she hears the call she can not ignore. Someone dared to abash one of her sisters. She feels the little one cower in a dark corner. Shame and fear all over her. But not for long. “Not for long, sister” she whispers and starts running…

I wake up in the corner of the bathroom. I always do. Trained myself years ago so I just had to start the water and regain full consciousness and let he gore run down the drain. But I have already forgotten this matter. I leave the bathroom and put on the business suit and head for a cup of coffee.