Hi there, fellow bloggers and readers,
I have been a little quiet of late because I was working on bettering our situation as well as bettering my attitude. Last Monday I saw by accident that the care home I applied for last year is looking again for an Activities Coordinator. I have a degree in social work with specialisation on working with the elderly and that is my dream job. So I applied again but haven’t heard anything yet.
Also by accident, I opened a different file on my Google Drive and ended up reading my journal entries from last year. It astonished me that I am still working on my financial situation and nothing has changed. Well, its gone worse if nothing else. I could, of course, apply for benefits but it looks like my 11 years working for the supermarket gives me exactly 6 months support and guess what? I didn’t come here to get benefits. I came here for work and so I stick to my decision to work for my income no matter what. Which is why I create on “The Bee Creates” and will do what needs doing to make my page known and find the crowd that is willing to buy. They are somewhere out there :-).
But it got me thinking. Over the last year, I have read a lot about manifesting and how your attitude to yourself makes an impact on how successful you are. For a sports person, it is as important to believe he or she can win than to actually practise their sport. I was reading up on successful business people who follow the same principle: They surround themselves with positive people, situations and books and they know exactly what they want which in turn leads them to the right decisions. My conclusion is, that we entirely underestimate the power of our intentions, thoughts and attitudes.
If we’d all be are of how much of what we want to change has to do with our attitude than with the actual physical behaviour we would not worry so much about diets, organisation or exercise but would examine what attitude makes us act the way we act and then work on the attitude. I did and I realised that my overall underlying attitude is: I can’t do it. I can’t keep it up. It’s too much. I do it wrong. (Yes, I know also something I am writing about for years… 😦 )
These thoughts are so ingraned that they appear automatically and I don’t even realise I think like that. So this morning I wondered what if what I do currently is all exactly what I need to do to achieve my dream of working from home and to write. What if I stop judging my actions and just do the next step and the next most important thing. What if I don’t worry anymore about what happened in the past and what will happen in the future. I am here now. Not tomorrow or yesterday. That’s all an illusion. Well, I will see how things change over the next few months.
Yes, attitude. Britain has an attitude problem I think. Looking at the Brexit procedures I just tear my hair, run around like a mad woman and scream and shout like a maniac. What on earth is wrong with people? So you don’t want to answer to Europe anymore? Well, then ruin your economy and don’t follow their rules then you can do what you want, trade with whom you want and how you want to. I bet someone already created a new East India Company to make Britain great again. God help us all…
I am not sure if I should laugh or cry about the whole mess that is going on. In my opinion, no matter where it goes it will end in a much bigger mess than we already have. We get a no deal Brexit? No food and traffic jams from Dover to Bristol will plague the land. A peoples vote and no Brexit? The Brexiteers will start another civil war. This whole Brexit thing is a Gordian knot that no one can solve. If any of the big-mouthed Brexiteer Tories would really believe they could get a better deal than Theresa May they would have already gotten rid of her. All of them know, that leavers have promised heaven on earth and we all know if it sounds too good to be true it is too good to be true. But it looks to me like those who believe Brexit is a good thing live in another universe. Or are keen on globalisation and AI taking over the country. Ok, rant over.
Here goes the attitude again. Didn’t I say at the beginning of the year I want to be more positive because I believe positivity will change things not negativity. Well, Brexit forms my limits. I have nothing left than sarcasm when it comes to politicians who are not willing to tell their people the truth: You’ve been lied to. It’s not gonna happen what you hope for. You can’t have cake and eat it!
Well, I have no cake but Melanie has some questions for us so I answer (
and don’t eat) them 😉 : SYW 1-14-19
You’re walking in a forest and you find a black suitcase. Inside it is one millions dollars and a piece of paper, stained in blood and bearing the single word “Don’t!” Would you take the suitcase home or leave it?
I’d leave it and call the cops. I am an avid reader I know that these things never end well….
Imagine you lapsed and cheated on your partner. You feel horrible and you know you’ll never do it again, because the feeling is so awful. Would you confess?
Not gonna happen: found my soulmate so no cheating and no confessing necessary!
Would you live your life differently if nobody ever judged you for anything you did?
I doubt it
Would a fly without wings be called a walk? No? What would you call it?
I think “Every Flavour Bean” would be suitable 😉
What’s something that brought joy and lightness of being to you this past week?
My husband!!! His dedication to his family and his hard work to keep us afloat is amazing. I am not sure he is aware of how much I appreciate him working so much despite his chronic back pain that drives him crazy sometimes.
And that’s it for now. I hope to get some time later on to read other participants entries. If not please bear with me I will sooner or later come around to your posts!