My adopted Language and I

My mother tongue is German, and for nearly 40 years, I have been talking and writing mainly German. You would expect it to be the natural thing that I am going on to write in German. But when I got more proficient in English, I started writing my poetry and everything else firstly in English and then translate it into German.

Why do I think and dream in English?

Strange that is. I have often wondered why I do that. Writing and talking in English seems to me seems much more natural than German. I still have to search for words and expressions at times but makes no difference to me. There is that thought that I was supposed to be born in Great Britain but 10 years earlier than I was born, but something went wrong and goes wrong ever since. But I can only speculate about that ;-).

So what? Why do I prefer to write in English? I think English is more exact and you can say things more to the point. You do not need loads of words either to make a point which is essential for poetry. It might also be that I can reach a lot more readers as English is a world language.

There might also be a psychological reason

But there might also be a psychological side to it. I had to experience a good share abuse in German. To not use it as the primary language for my creativity means to step back from those experiences and decide to live for something better.

In the end, though – does it really matter which language I use?As long as I can live and express my creativity, the language is not really of importance or is it?

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I still am no good with Comma Rules/ Ich kann immernoch keine Kommaregeln

July 2020

I am in Great Britain for 13 years and think and dream in English. And it feels even stranger to speak in German. Who knows though: Maybe Brexit means we have to go back to Germany. Then I have to get used to speaking German again. Still am not good with comma rules. Neither in German nor in English πŸ˜‰ .

June 2017

I still feel the same about German and I have lost so much more now that I am in the country for ten years.


December 2010

I live in the UK since three and a half years and for some strange reason feel a bit odd when I talk German (my mother tongue) or hear it. There is this bizarre thought in my head that I was meant to live in the UK, but some force of nature put me in the wrong place. Well, am in the right one now and I love to write and talk in English.

But lately, I realised how much I lose with not using German. It is a different way of saying things. English is accurate and down to the point. You can say things in fewer words than you can in German. In German, you can play in a vast variety of words. Both languages have those words that mean more than one thing, and you can make some hilarious remarks with them. I am not sure how much the language you grew up in has an effect on the person you are. But knowing more than one language definitely, opens your horizon.

Writing in German feels like coming home. Language, reading, writing was the place I always felt safe and happy in. It was never the actual geographic place. The Internet gives me the possibility to stay in contact with German speaking friends and family and to write and read in German. That is probably the reason why I feel so much at home around here. But I wasn’t aware of that for a long time.

PS but I definitely don’t miss all the silly comma rules in German!!!!!!

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Juli 2020
13 Jahre in Grossbritannien und ich denke und traeume in Englisch. Und es fuehlt sich noch komischer an Deutsch zu sprechen. Wer weiss, wenn Brexit fuer uns bedeutet, nach D zurueck zu kehren, dann muss ich mich wieder daran gewoehnen. Kommaregeln kann ich immer noch nicht. Weder in Deutsch noch in Englisch πŸ˜‰ .
June 2017
Ich denke noch genauso ueber Deutsch aber habe sehr viel mehr von meiner Sprache verloren, jetzt, wo ich zehn Jahre im Lande bin.
December 2010
Ich lebe seit drei einhalb Jahren in Grossbritannien und komischerweise fuehle ich mich ein wenig seltsam, wenn ich deutsch (meine Muttersprache) spreche oder hoere. Β Da ist dieser bizzarre Gedanke in mir, dass ich dafuer bestimmt war, in Grossbritannien zu sein aber eine Naturgewalt hat mich an den falschen Platz versetzt. Jetzt bin ich ja am richtigen Platz und ich liebe es englisch zu sprechen oder zu schreiben.
Aber in der letzten Zeit habe ich endeckt, dass mir sehr viel verloren geht, wenn ich nicht deutsch rede oder schreibe. Es ist ein grosser Unterschied, wie man Dinge in unterschiedlichen Sprachen ausdrueckt. Englisch ist akkurat und auf den Punkt. Man kann das meiste viel kuerzer ausdruecken als das im Deutschen moeglich ist. Im Deutschen kann man in den Woertern schwelgen. Beide Sprachen haben diese Woerter, die mehr als eine Bedeutung haben, und man kann viele urkomische Bemerkungen machen.Β Ich weiss nicht, wie viel die Sprache, mit der Du aufgewachsen bist, einen Einfluss darauf, hat wer Du bist. Aber mehrsprachig sein oeffnet definitiv Deinen Horizont.
In Deutsch zu schreiben ist wie nach Hause kommen fuer mich. Sprache, schreiben, lesen waren fuer mich immer Orte, wo ich mich sicher und gluecklich gefuehlt habe. Das war nie der geographische Ort. Das Internet gibt mir die Moeglichkeit, mit deutschsprachigen Freunden und Familie in Verbindung zu bleiben und Deutsch zu sprechen und zu schreiben. Das ist vermutlich der Grund, warum ich mich hier so wohl fuehle.
Aber mir war das lange nicht bewusst.
PS die bloeden Komma Regeln im Deutschen vermisse ich aber ganz sicher nicht!!!!!!!!