#ThrowBackThursday: How to get stuff done when you are depressed ~ Jessica Gimeno on #bipolar

December 2019:

I posted tjis first in October 2017:

This post is in honour of today’s World Mental Health Day 2017.

We are stronger than depression and inspiring people can show us how. Here is Jessica Gimeno at the TEDxPilsenWomen talk:

Related Blogpost:

TruLeeMe: Manic Monday

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#ThrowBachThursday: 5 Things to Know about St. Johnswort ~ mentalhealthmatters

I posted this first in October 2017:

Saint John's wort flowers

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Today I want to write a little more about St. Johnswort a medicinal herb I use to relieve my symptoms of depression and anxiety due to living with PTSD. I have been mentioning it before both in posts and tweets but never gave more information about it and I think there are 5 Things to Know about St. Johnswort.

In Germany where I come from St. Johnswort is a herb that is readily prescribed for mild and moderate depression. Before I came to the UK I had been using it for years and was aware of some of the side effects like becoming more sensitive to sunlight and getting a sunburn more easily for example.

You can imagine how I was surprised when my doctors here told me that it is not usually used and not enough is known about its effectiveness for depression. Now, that was ten years ago and I am glad that this misconception has changed a little. However, it is still not prescribed by GP’s as at least in the Uk it is an unlicensed herbal remedy.

On the other hand, though the mental health charity Mind dedicated a whole page to St. Johnswort and how it works. And there are many other pages out there that give you information on it.

What is St. Johnswort and how does it work?

This is what Mind the mental health Charity says:

What is St John’s wort?
St John’s wort is a herbal remedy that has been used for hundreds of years to treat mental health problems. Today it is mainly used as an over the counter remedy to treat mild and moderate depression, seasonal affective disorder (SAD), mild anxiety and sleep problems.

The botanical name for St John’s wort is Hypericum perforatum, and it is sometimes marketed and sold as ‘Hypericum’. It contains the ingredients hypericin and hyperforin, that have been used for their antidepressant properties.

How does St John’s wort work?
It is thought that St John’s wort works in a similar way to standard antidepressant medication. Research suggests that it increases the activity of brain chemicals such as serotonin and noradrenaline that are thought to play an important part in regulating our mood.

As well as hypercin and hyperforin, the plant contains many other substances that may boost its antidepressant activity in ways that are not yet fully understood. (Mind ~ St John’s wort – Hypericum perforatum)

What are the 5 Things to know about St. Johnswort?

  1. St. Johnswort is as effective as antidepressants for mild and moderate depression
  2. St. Johnswort is researched and proven
  3. There are side effects but less
  4. Be careful taking it with other medicines
  5. Be careful from where you get it

1. St. Johnswort is as effective as antidepressants for mild and moderate depression.

There have been many trials using St. Johnswort both for major and minor/moderate depression over the years which had not much impact. However, a couple of years before I came to the Uk the British Journal of Psychiatry did a meta-analysis of randomised control trials with St. Johnswort which concluded:

“…Larger placebo-controlled trials restricted to patients with major depression showed only minor effects over placebo, while older and smaller trials not restricted to patients with major depression showed marked effects. Compared with standard antidepressants Hypericum extracts had similar effects…” (British Journal of Psychiatry ~ Review Article St. Johnswort for Depression).

In 2008 NHS Choices picked up on two headlines one in The Daily Mail and one in the Daily Telegraph that suggested that St. Johnswort helps against depression. The article in The Daily Telegraph refers to the meta-analysis by the British Journal of Psychiatry and the NHS Knowledge Service concluded:

“…In summary, by adding the large studies that have recently been conducted to the existing body of research, the evidence suggests that St. John’s wort is a viable treatment for mild to moderate major depression. Importantly, there is considerable variation in the preparations of St. John’s wort available over the counter. The researchers say that their findings apply only to the extracts that were used in the studies in this review, or possibly to very similar preparations. People who want to take St. John’s wort should speak to their doctors about the best preparation for them, and the risks and benefits compared to standard antidepressants….” (NHS Choices ~ St. Johnswort for Depression)

In comparison to that, the National Center for Complementary and Integrative Health of the US Department of Health and Human Services mentions a 2009 systematic review of 29 studies that suggests St. Johnswort may be better than a placebo and as effective as standard antidepressants.

However, they conclude the effectiveness of St. Johnswort for depression is inconclusive as their own studies had no positive results. (National Center for Complementary and Integrative Health ~ St. Johnswort and Depression. In Depth)

2. St. Johnswort is researched and proven

Dr. Natalie Bozinovski talks about Canadian trials and gives you more information to St. Johnswort in her video here:

3 & 4 There are side-effects to St. Johnswort but less than those using standard anti-depressants

According to Wikipedia there are several possible side-effects like

  • nausea
  • abdominal pain
  • loss of appetite
  • diarrhoea
  • dizziness
  • dry mouth
  • photosensitivity
  • decreases levels of estrogen which such as estradiol, by speeding up its metabolism, and should not be taken by women on contraceptive pills as it upregulates the CYP3A4 cytochrome of the P450 system in the liver
  • decreases the effectiveness of several drugs like antiretrovirals, Benzodiazepines, birth control and beta blockers

Well, looking at that it sounds quite a few possible side-effects to me. I, however, have never experienced any of these and as I do not take any other drugs or the pill interactions never were an issue.

I assume these are possible but happen a lot less than using standard anti-depressants but I have to do some more research there.

5 Be Careful Where You Get it from

St. Johnswort is in most countries an unlicensed herbal remedy and therefore not as well regulated as licenced remedies. Make sure if you want to use it to see a health professional or homoeopath to find a trusted source to buy St. Johnswort.

A personal review of St. Johnswort by Emily Faith

What do you think?

In my opinion, it is a highly personal choice which way you go to deal with depression. There are many reasons for using standard antidepressants but also many reasons for going the complementary way. For me, it has always worked better without standard drugs but with herbs, therapy and creativity. However, I know many who have chosen a different path. I am curious: Which path have you chosen and why? Please let me know in the comments!

Resources:

NHS Choices

National Center for Complementary and Integrative Health

British Journal of Psychiatry

YouTube Channels: Health and the City, Dr. Natalie Bozinovski ND. MSc., Dr. Sam Robbins, Emily Faith

MIND – The Mental Health Charity

Wikipedia

Developing our Voices or how to Manage our Worries

Two years ago I signed up for Rachel Kellys Newsletter (sign-up is at the bottom of the page). Rachel is an embassador for mental health and has experienced crippling depression about which she talked in the FutureLearn Course “Literature and Mental Health” by University of Warwick. If you live with a mental health condition then I can only advice you to take this course. It is for free (you can upgrade later for a small fee) and it gives you many many literary tools to ease the pain of bad mental health.

Last year Rachel was looking for beta readers for her latest book “Singing in the Rain” and I signed up to give feedback which was an incredible experience. Since several months the book is now available for example on Wordery and I had started to share its brilliant “exercises” on my “Mindful Music Monday Mug” series which currently has a break. I still want to share Rachel’s workbook though and hope I can entise you to buy it and get some more helpful advice on how to manage your wellbeing and mental health. It is great fun and offers great advice.  That is why I want to share a little more about her book here and there and today is one of those days 🙂 .

But first some words by Rachel about “Singing in the Rain”:

copyright: Rachel Kelly via YouTube

I am now at a new chapter in the book which is called “Developing your Voice” and the first part in this chapter is “Managing Worry”. Here Rachel explains her way of dealing with her worries frist thing in the morning. The chapter made me smile because she describes how according to family history her first words were something like “I worry about…” 🙂 .

Rachel gives her worries a so-called “Worry Window” first thing in the morning when she writes down all her worries of that day. She then figures out which worries have priority: Her mothers chemotherapy is more important than what to wear for the day. Now she focuses on the worries which have priority and figures out if she can do something about them or not. For those she can do something about she creates an action plan. If her worries come back later on she can focus on doing something as she writes all of it down rather than using up her energy for worrying.

What I really liked about her suggestions is how she deals with those priority worries that she can’t do anything about: She acknowledges that these worries are part of her mental landscape and acts upon them with compassion. Her preferred way is doing a meditation in which she concentrates on her breath and on the following words:

May I be safe from harm
May I be happy just as I am
May I be peaceful with whatever is happening.

I usually try to suppress these sort of worries and with that they become bigger and bigger. I suspect giving them a place in my mental landscape and being compassionate with myself will make them lose importance. Working with Mindfulness exercises have a similar effect.

Her book is a work book and so Rachel suggested how to write your worries down in the worry window:

photo of bookpage in "Singing in the Rain" by Rachel Kelly explaining how to write down worries and how to deal with them.

Copyright: Rachel Kelly

So if you are a worrier rather than a warrior then try out Rachels suggestions or better buy the book and gain lots of material to manage your wellbeing and mental health.

Happy Sunday to you all

and

Love & Rage!

 

DISCLAIMER:

I am not a health professional. My posts describe my thoughts, my experiences and my conclusions about life, mental health and self-improvement. My described actions always go alongside therapy and do not substitute professional advice by a health professional be it a doctor, therapist or counsellor.

I invite you to try out self-care tools, however, if any of these make you feel uncomfortable please stop and do not go further ahead. Also, if any of the tools suggested bring up issues that need dealing with do not hesitate to reach out for professional help. To recognise when you need to stop and when to reach out for professional or any other help is one important part to learn when it comes to self-care.

Please look here if you need further guidance:

UK:
Mind
NHS

USA:
MentalHealth.gov

Canada:
Government of Canada

 

For all Men who need to speak out and get help ~ #mentalhealth

I published this post first in October 2017

“Stephen Fry, Cedric Anselin, Prince Harry and many more did it! Get help for your #menalhealth”

 

video credit: Huffington Post via YouTube

 

Find help here:

International ~ Helplines on Mental Health Support

UK ~ Helplines on NHS page

US ~ Helplines on Getselfhelp

Australia ~ Helplines on Healthdirect

 

 

 

 

Survivor Saturday ~ Helplines & Homepages to get you through holidays and other tough times

January 2019

I know Christmas is over but you might need help at all times of the year. That is why I post this one again in January.

December 2016

Christmas is supposed to be a time of cheerfulness and happy experiences. The sad truth is though that, Christmas is a difficult time if you are a survivor of abuse. So often abuse has happened more at any holiday and of course at Christmas too so memories might surface and give you trouble.

You might still be in contact with the abuser/s and might see them at the holidays and further abuse might happen in different forms. And it is a stressful time anyway so memories find their way in easier. It is also a difficult time for parents and partners of survivors of abuse.

A few years ago I did a post about helplines who can be there to support you if you are in distress or in crisis or someone you love is. Unfortunately, I lost it but I thought today is a good time to do another one.

Well, one post is too small to post global helplines so I had a look at my stats and chose to write for those countries where most of my readers come from.

But no matter, if I have a helpline for you or not, please remember: This problem is only temporary. Life will get better and you are strong enough and have enough resources inside yourself to get through this.

It’s not about Christmas I admit but still helpful :-). Video credit: Trauma Recovery University via YouTube

And here are a few resources that will help you this Christmas (and any other holiday in any religion):

UK:

Resource: The Survivors Trust

The National Association for People Abused in Childhood (NAPAC)

Call 0808 801 0331 free from all landlines and mobiles
NAPAC provides a national freephone support line for adults who have suffered any type of abuse in childhood.
Telephone support line opening hours: Monday – Thursday 10:00am-9.00pm and Friday 10.00am-6.00pm/ no information about Christmas opening times
Website: www.napac.org.uk

SurvivorsUK Helpline Web Chat

National Helpline Web Chat for adult male survivors of rape or sexual
Monday – Friday 10.30 – 21:00; Saturday – Sunday 10:00 – 18:00/no information about Christmas opening times
Website: www.survivorsuk.org

MOSAC (Mothers of Sexually Abused Children)  0800 980 1958

Supporting all non-abusing parents and carers whose children have been sexually abused. We provide various types of support services and information for parents, carers and professionals dealing with child sexual abuse.
Website: www.mosac.org.uk Unfortunately, the helpline moves and is not available from December 16th up to January.

SupportLine 01708 765200

Confidential emotional support to children, young adults and adults by telephone, email and post.
Website: www.supportline.org.uk No information of Christmas opening times

CISters  (Surviving Rape and/or Sexual Abuse) 02380 338080

Answerphone 023 80 338080 is usually monitored daily during the week and callers can choose to leave their name and phone number, and we will call them back and will take care when doing so. Or can email admin@cisters.org.uk

The helpline is available to female adult survivors of childhood rape/sexual abuse, and others can call if they have a concern about such issues.  In the case of the latter we will seek to signpost them to appropriate services. No information about Christmas opening times

PODS: Positive Outcomes for Dissociative Survivors
A project of Survivors Trauma and Abuse Recovery Trust (START)

PODS works to make recovery from dissociative disorders a reality through training, informing and supporting.
Helpline: 0800 181 4420 – Tuesdays 6-8pm or appointments at other times by contacting the office
Email: mail@start-online.org.uk  (for START) or info@pods-online.org.uk (for PODS)
Website: www.start-online.org.uk and www.pods-online.org.uk

US & Canada:

Resourse: Isurvive

The Sex Abuse Treatment Center

http://www.satchawaii.org/

We help adults, teenagers and children; both females and males.

55 Merchant Street, 22nd Floor

Honolulu, Hawaii 96813

24/7 Crisis Hotline; 1-808-524-7273

Survivors of Incest Anonymous (SIA)

http://www.siawso.org
Offers self-help twelve-step recovery program for adult survivors of child sexual abuse. Defines incest and child abuse broadly. Provides general information, as well as information on how to start a new support group.
World Service Office
P.O. Box 190
Benson, MD 21018-9998
(410)- 893-3322

Incest Survivors Anonymous (ISA)

http://www.lafn.org/medical/isa/home.html
Self-help, mutual-help twelve-step support groups for survivors. For groups & meeting information and literature write them, (specify you are a survivor) or call.
P.O. Box 17245
Long Beach, CA. 90807-7245
(562)-428-5599

RAINN (Rape Abuse Incest National Network )

http://www.rainn.org/
Operates the U.S. National Sexual Assault Hotline and also provides a 24 live secure online hotline for victims, friends and family. Offers support and information about individual/group counseling, medical attention, reporting a crime, finding shelter and many other services.
2000 L Street NW, Suite 406
Washington, DC 20036
(800)-656-HOPE or 4673 (24 hour hotline)
https://ohl.rainn.org/online/ (24 hour online hotline)

Women Organized Against Rape (WOAR)

http://www.woar.org
(215)-985-3333 (24 hour hotline)

They provide crisis intervention services to help survivors who have recently been sexually assaulted.
They also provide counseling and advocacy for survivors of sexual assault and sexual abuse, community education and public information about sexual violence.
One Penn Center
1617 JFK Boulevard Suite 1100
Philadelphia, PA 19103
(215)-985-3315
(215)-985-9111 fax

Domestic Violence Survival

http://www.domesticviolence.com/content.html
(800)- 799-7233(SAFE)
(800)-621-4673 (HOPE) in NY
Information and referrals to shelters, crisis, long and short-term counseling, legal assistance, document replacement, lock replacement

Sources for Domestic Violence Prevention from SocialWorkDegree.net

http://www.socialworkdegree.net/domestic-violence-prevention/
List of over 100 organizations throughout the U.S. that offer counseling, advice, and even shelter to members of families where domestic violence has occurred. The sources listed include: advocates for better policies and social support systems, 24 hour hotlines and crisis counselors, and organizations that support and help domestic violence victims in their healing and recovery psychologically.

Safe Horizon

http://www.safehorizon.org
Safe Haven provides resources for domestic violence, rape, sexual assault and incest victims. NY Area programs include services for domestic violence, rape, sexual assault, child abuse, stalking, human trafficking, and homeless youths.
2 Lafayette Street
New York, NY 10007
(212)-577-7700
(212)-385-0331 fax

YWCA Rape Crisis Center

http://www.ywca-sv.org/programs/rape_crisis_center.php
Area programs include a 24-hour crisis line for survivors, family members, and friends, accompaniment of survivors to hospital and through the reporting and judicial process, peer support groups, child abuse and assault prevention programs and free confidential crisis counseling.
375 South Third Street
San Jose, CA 95112
(800)-572-2782 (domestic violence crisis line)
(408)-287-3000 (24 hour rape crisis line)
(650)-493-7273 (24 hour rape crisis line)

The Sexual Assault Crisis Center

http://thecenter-ct.org/
Programs include state-wide Spanish and English 24-hour hotlines, individual short-term counseling, support groups, advocacy and benefit assistance.
1 Dock Street, Suite 320
Stamford , CT 06902
(888)-999-5545 (24-hour hotline, English)
(888)-568-8332 (24-hour hotline, Spanish)

Survivors Network of those Abused by Priests- SNAP

http://www.snapnetwork.org/
SNAP provides support and knowledge to all victims of clergy abuse and advocates helping ensure that in future generations, children will be safe. (U.S. & Canada)
PO Box 6416
Chicago, IL 60680-6416
(312) 455-1499
(877) 762-7432

Gift From Within (GFW)

http://www.giftfromwithin.org
This site is dedicated to those who suffer post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), those at risk for PTSD, and those who care for traumatized individuals. Articles, book reviews, coping ideas poetry and peer support through the pal network for women suffering from PTSD.
16 Cobb Hill Rd.
Camden, Maine 04843
(207)-236-8858
Fax: (207)-236-2818

Pandora’s Project

http://www.pandys.org/
This site provides support and resources for survivors of rape and sexual abuse. Included are articles and resources as well as a support forum and chat area. It is one of the few forum sites open to minor survivors (16 and older).
3109 W. 50th Street, Suite #320
Minneapolis, MN 55410
email: admin@pandys.org
(612)-234-4204

HealthyPlace.com

http://www.healthyplace.com/
HealthyPlace.com is the largest consumer mental health site, providing comprehensive, trusted information on psychological disorders and psychiatric medications from both a consumer and expert point of view. They have an active mental health social network for support, online psychological tests, breaking mental health news, mental health videos, our documentary films, a live mental health TV show, unique tools like our “mediminder” and more.

video credit: Rachel Platten via YouTube

Australia:

Resourse: Isurvive

ASCA (Adult Survivors of Child Abuse), Australia

http://www.asca.org.au/
ASCA is a national organization which works to improve the lives of adult survivors of child abuse throughout Australia. Resources include: daily safety tools, crisis help, court info, ASCA workshops, etc.
PO Box 597
Milsons Point
NSW 1565
(02) 8920 3611
email: info@asca.org.au

ACSSA (Australian Institute of Family Studies), Australia

http://www.aifs.gov.au/acssa/crisis.html
ACSSA is a central collection point for research, information and resources about sexual assault in Australia. Their resources include crisis support for adult survivors of sexual abuse.
Level 20 South Tower
485 La Trobe Street
MELBOURNE VIC 3000
Australia
Ph: +61 3 9214 7888,  Fax: +61 3 9214 7839

1800RESPECT, Australia

https://www.1800respect.org.au/
National Sexual Assault, Domestic and Family Violence Counselling Service for people living in Australia. They assist people who have been or who are affected by sexual assault, domestic or family violence by providing online and telephone counseling. Resources are also available for loved ones and professionals.
PO Box 4069 Lane Cove
NSW 2066
Ph: 1800 737 732
email: privacy@medibankhealth.com.au

China: Sorry, I could not find any helplines for survivors

Resource: Suicide.org

Beijing Suicide Research and Prevention Center Hotline
BEIJING
Hotline: Free: 0800-810-1117
Hotline: Mobile/IP/extension users: 010-8295-1332
Website: crisis.org.cn

Lifeline Shanghai
Shanghai
Contact by: – Phone
Hotline: (21) 63798990
Website: lifelineshanghai.com

Lifeline Yanji
Yanji
Contact by: – Phone
Hotline: (0433) 273 9595
Hours:
Mon: 08:00 – 16:00
Tues, Wed, Thurs, Fri, Sat, Sun: 08:00 – 16:00

Video Credit: Xavier Naido via YouTube

Germany: Links are in German

Resource: Dissoziation und Trauma.de

www.schotterblume.de
Bundesweite Hilfe für Mißbrauchsopfer (auch Männer): Tel. 0700-73353644
e-mail-Beratung unter: seelenhilfe@schotterblume.de

www.zartbitter.de
Die bedeutendste Kontakt- und Informationsstelle gegen sexuellen Mißbrauch an Mädchen und Jungen. Ist seit 20 Jahren tätig und macht viel Öffentlichkeitsarbeit

www.frauennotrufe.de
Bundesverband autonomer Frauenberatungsstellen und Frauennotrufe; Kontakte zu regionalen parteilich-feministischen und patriarchatskritischen Projekten und Beratungsstellen, insbesondere auch im Zusammenhang mit sexualisierter Gewalt. Öffentlichkeitsarbeit. Beratung auch auf englisch und türkisch

www.big-hotline.de
Hilfe bei häuslicher Gewalt gegen Frauen, telefonisch 030/6110300 (täglich 9-24 Uhr), falls erforderlich, mit Dolmetscherinnen (in 51 Sprachen). Unterstützung für Angehörige und soziale Einrichtungen, online- und e-mail-Beratung

And you can find many more helplines of different countries but mainly for mental health problems at Together We Are Strong

 

 

How Music impacts these 14 Artist’s Mental Health

January 2019

No, it’s not Monday but we are all still busy. So here a re-post from March 2018

March 2018

It is Monday, you are all busy so I just share an interesting video about music and mental health.

Please enjoy:

Cuppa Tea TV is an Irish organisation that promotes music in all its forms.

Vitamin D and Mental Health ~ Randi Fredricks, Ph.D on YouTube

December 2016

It’s winter in the northern hemisphere and clinical as well as seasonal depression is more of a problem than usual. That is why I repost this entry to give some ideas on how you can boost your mood.

May 2016

Last year I went to see my GP to ask her about the influence certain vitamins and minerals may have on my mental health. She said to me that UK GP’s do not believe in checking on Vitamins as regular nutrition should give me everything I need.

I was quite disappointed as I am from Germany and many GP’s there are very open to holistic healing methods and often are trained both in allopathic and holistic healing methods. In my experience, that combination is great to give a patient the best of both worlds.

Three times I was advised to take traditional antidepressants prescribed by my GP’s and even though I took them as long as they were said to start working, they made my condition a lot worse. In between I had been taking St. Johns wort and I never experienced an extreme worsening of my condition. It always enabled me to manage depression and anxiety a lot better.

Lately, I have read a lot about the impact Vitamin D has on mental health and I think the connection is worth considering and learning more about. That is why I share a video by the San Jose Counseling and Psychotherapy practice where Randi Fredricks, Ph.D. explains a little about Vitamin D and its connection with depression.


Video Source: San Jose Counseling and Psychotherapy via YouTube

Further Reading:

Psychology Today ~ Psychological Consequences of Vitamin D Deficiency 

NHS ~ Health Claims about Vitamin D examined

WebMD ~ Low Levels of Vitamin D May Be Linked To Depression

Natural News ~ Depression caused by Vitamin D Deficiency, Study Reveals

DISCLAIMER:

I am not a health professional. My posts describe my thoughts, my experiences and my conclusions about life, mental health and self-improvement. My described actions always go alongside therapy and do not substitute professional advice from a health professional be it a doctor, therapist or counsellor.

I invite you to try out self-care tools, however, if any of these make you feel uncomfortable please stop and do not go further ahead. Also, if any of the tools suggested bring up issues that need dealing with do not hesitate to reach out for professional help.

To recognise when you need to stop and when to reach out for professional or any other help is one important part to learn when it comes to self-care.

Please look here if you need further guidance:

UK:

Mind

NHS

USA:

MentalHealth.gov

Canada:

Government of Canada

The big four zero/ Die grosse Null nach der Vier

October 2018

The big five zero is rapidly approaching and I am still working on it. But I think I am getting there 🙂

May 2011

It is 7 months now that I hit the big four zero. I always thought I would enjoy it as you grow a bit more relaxed with a bit more life experience. But alas there goes my dream. One of my biggest challenges and one of the biggest changes in my life took place.

If you believe spiritual people life around 40 means to take stock of what you have achieved and to start living your life’s purpose. And if I have a look at the last 7 months that is what it is all about. What do I want from my life, how can I get it and is it worth it? Of course not worth as in money but worth as in happiness.

Maybe at the end that is what it is all about. What makes me happy. Life is too short to be unhappy no matter what happened. I live now. Not yesterday, last month or 30 years ago. Just this second, this moment is what counts. And if I can create a life that makes me want to live it and give a feeling of joy then that is definitely worth it!

Description for visually impaired readers: A tree with yellow foliage in front of a bluish grey cloudy sky

OKtober 2018

Die grosse fuenf null kommt naeher und naeher und ich arbeite immer noch daran. Aber ich bin jetzt ganz nahe… 🙂

Mai 2011

Es ist nun 7 Monate her, dass ich die grosse Null nach der Vier erreicht habe. Ich hatte immer geadacht, dass ich das voll geniesen werde, da man mit etwas mehr Lebenserfahrung auch was ausgeglichener wird. Aber das war wohl nix. Eine meine groessten Herausforderungen und Veraenderungen hat stattgefunden.
Wenn man spirituellen Leuten glaubt geht es beim Leben um die 40 darum Bilanz zu ziehen und an zu fangen nach dem Sinn des eigenen Lebens zu leben. Und wenn ich mir die letzten 7 Monate so ansehe war es genau das. Was will ich von diesem Leben, wie kriege ich es und ist es das wert? Natuerlich nicht wert = Geld sondern wert = gluecklich sein.
Im Grunde ist gluecklich sein eh das worum es geht. Das Leben ist zu kurz, um ungluecklich zu sein egal was so passiert ist. Ich lebe jetzt. Nicht gestern, nicht letzten Monat oder vor 30 Jahren. Nur diese Sekunde, dieser Moment zaehlt. Und wenn ich ein Leben entwerfen kann, dass ich leben will und das mir Freude bereitet dann ist es das auf alle Faelle wert!

Being picky/waehlerisch sein

September 2018

I certainly have slowed down now… 🙂

January 2011 (from one of my old blogs)

I was hurrying through my life.

On a usual day I wanted to read, write my blogs, write to friends and write my poetry, meditate, spend time with the family, meet friends,  work, play on Facebook, the tablet, the computer and my phone, knit, do the housework, have a good rest, sort my paperwork, watch telly, do some baking and cooking and listen to the radio.

Unfortunately for me, there are only 24 hours in a day and at least 16 hours go for work and sleep. Another two probably for eating, toilet and getting dressed and undressed so there are only 6 hours left per day to do all the other things. But no matter how organised I get there is no way I can do all of that. So another of my new year’s resolutions is to be picky.

Being picky about what I want to spend my time with. There is really no need to do all of it every day. I had a really good think about what is really important to me. I chose two things I want to do every day and the rest I just spread all over the week. I am quite happy with that even though it still is hard not to get stressed and stay picky. But there is really hope I can find the right balance soon.

You want to know what my priorities are? Well, I leave that to your imagination :-).

September 2018

Jetzt gehe ich alles sicherlich ruhiger an… 🙂

Januar 2011 (von einem meiner alten Blogs)

Ich bin durch mein Leben geeilt.
An einem normalen Tag wollte ich lesen, meine Blogs, an Freunde und meine Gedichte schreiben, meditieren, Zeit mit der Familie und Freunde verbringen, arbeiten, auf Facebook, mit dem Tablet, dem Computer und meinem Handy spielen, stricken, die Hausarbeit machen, ausruhen, meinen Papierkram sortieren, Fernsehen, etwas kochen und backen und Radio hoeren.
Ungluecklicherweise hat der Tag nur 24 Stunden und zumindest 16 Stunden gehen fuer Arbeit und Schlaf drauf. Weitere zwei fuer Essen, Toilette und an- und ausziehen und so sind dann nur noch 6 Stunden ueber fuer den Rest. Aber da war keine Chance das alles zu schaffen, egal wie gut ich mich organisiert habe. Und so ist ein weiterer meiner guten Vorsaetze, waehlerisch zu sein.
Waehlerisch zu sein, womit ich meine Zeit verbringe. Es ist wirklich nicht noetig, alles auf einmal zu machen. Ich habe mir richtig Gedanken gemacht, was mir wirklich wichtig ist. Ich habe zwei Dinge gewaehlt, die ich jeden Tag machen will und den Rest habe ich ueber die Woche verteilt. Ich bin ziemlich gluecklich damit obwohl es immer noch schwierig fuer mich ist, nicht gestresst zu werden oder waehlerisch zu bleiben. Aber es gibt wirkliche Hoffnung, dass ich die richtige Balance bald finden werde.
Du moechtest wissen, was meine Prioritaeten sind? Das ueberlasse ich Deiner Fantasie :-).

There is a rainbow hidden …

Some days are like this picture: no matter how good your life is you just see dark skies… but I am determined not to let them win. After all, both the sun and a rainbow are hidden in there somewhere…