Is it Morning yet?

Hello out there, all you lovely people. How are you? I haven’t asked this question for quite some time because I didn’t have the mind to write new content.

Rather used the little energy I had for “Come Away With Me” and working through old posts. Well, one rant got away with me, I admit. But when racists celebrate the death of a 16-year-old boy, then I simply have to express my rage. Chemotherapy or not.

So where were I?

Ah, how are you? I am not up-to-date with anyone because I don’t have the mind for reading either. And Akismet brushes my comments in your spam folders so even if I turn up you won’t know until weeks later.

Such is life, I guess. I hope you remember me one day, my dears 😘.

And there I had that lovely idea, to write about but it’s all gone. Maybe I should link this post to Linda’s SoCS.

No, I should tell you what Akismet said to me about my comments. Apparently, my Weebly page is considered spam. I took it off my profiles but haven’t got any proof yet that it makes a difference.

So, do you want to know how I am? Well, I am present. Brain fog, you know. It’s a funny thing: I start something, and a second later I can’t remember what and why.

This virus malarkey has just one advantage: no one can see me looking lost and hear me cursing because I wonder why I stand in the yard only in my dressing gown. The neighbours keep politely away from the crazy chemo woman 😁.

I am so far from caring that I even post pictures of my minion head: if I paint my face yellow and wear blue dungarees those five hairs on my head make me look like a minion πŸ˜‚

I love minions by the way!

So is it morning yet? Insomnia is another wonderful side effect of chemo and (please leave this post if you are a little squeamish) thrush in the mouth.

Yuk. I didn’t even know you can get thrush in that area. And yes, I know I repeat myself. It’s just there are so many tourists in our area, and our pharmacy had trouble to sort my thrush meds out which didn’t help at all.

Don’t worry; I have it now. And a spoonful of plain yoghurt every half an hour works wonders.

Mostly I spent my time playing mobile and online games and listening to music. A lot of French or spiritual or both. Do you think the universe wants to tell me something?

I think, I also might have seen every single episode of “Find it, Fix it, Flog it” and “Escape to the Country” as I can manage the Iplayer but can never find anything to watch on Amazon Prime. Somehow, shows I like, vanish mysteriously after a week.

It might just be me, my glasses and I, though. It does help to clean your glasses every now and then.😝

No, please do not worry. I am fine. Really. I could get cancer treatment despite the virus, I can still eat despite chemo and thrush and I am not that sociable a person that I miss going out.

In fact, I love this peace and quiet. The best husband (Jeremy Ckarkson voice) in the world and Sherky are wonderful nurses. And we have the internet to connect me with the world. I miss the children from another mother though dearly. You can’t have everything I guess…

24 thoughts on “Is it Morning yet?

  1. Glad your are in good spirits. It’s true your comments would go into spam and then I would feel bad because I did not know it. You just have to keep posting here so I will see you. A few of us are writing about not being able to read since the pandemic. I just started reading books again recently. I like minions too. πŸ™‚

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  2. Hello dear Bee friend!!!!

    I had wondered why your comments for the past 2-3 months had been going to my spam folder … I check and clear out my spam folder daily, and always rescued your comments, for they are precious to me. But … in the past two weeks, I have been robo-bombed and have had over 6,000 spam comments, making it impossible for me to scroll through them all, so if any of yours have been deleted, I am so very sorry!

    As for your ‘brain fog’ … heck, I have that ALL the time, and I’m not going through chemo! With me, I think it is a combination of old age and trumpitis! One may be curable, but the old age, I’m afraid, is only likely to get worse!

    I look at your picture and I see a beautiful woman with so much warmth and kindness in her eyes. I hope that the day comes you are declared cancer-free and you feel like getting out and moving mountains! Meanwhile, know that you are loved and that many, many people are pulling for you, keeping fingers crossed.

    Love you, dear Bee!!! πŸ’–πŸ’–

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    • Dear Jill, thanks so much for your kind wordsπŸ™‹β€β™€οΈ. I did read your post about the spam bombing, so I didn’t even bother to comment to save you the trouble. 🌻
      The only reason why I keep sane is all of you being on my side.β™₯ It is incredible how much compassion can help. It cures a lot. 🌻
      And as for cancer-free: my oncologist said that’s the goal πŸ‘ and it looks to me like they are throwing every possible treatment at me🌞. I am going to have injections for two years to strengthen my bones which seems to help against cancer too 🌱 and ten years of hormone suppressing tablets because the cancer reacts to hormones. πŸ€—. I am already good at living without refined sugar and will get myself some sort of exercise regime I can keep up to get rid of all risks I can prevent. 😁. Currently, I try out dancing like no one’s watching to modern French pop/chanson and celebrating life in all its gore and glory πŸ˜‡. Have a lovely weekend despite everything. I feel honoured to have you as my friendβ™₯. Your passion, compassion and humour is a beacon in these dark times. πŸ•―. Your words and posts make a lot of difference. I pray daily for you and your country that you manage to get rid of that nutter in the Whitehouse. for believing in prayer, 😁 it’s the thought that counts πŸ˜‡πŸ™‹β€β™€οΈπŸ

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      • Your optimism is so inspiring!!! I whine about the smallest of things, but then I think of all that you’re going through and how courageously you’re coping with it all, still finding time to care about others. You are the gold standard, and I, too, am honoured by your friendship. So glad I met you! Dance on, Sweet Bee! Scare that ol’ cancer back under the rock it came from! πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

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      • Am on it, Jill. Every day 😎. I guess, I was more influenced by Albert Camus and his “Myth of Sisyphos” (https://1000wordphilosophy.com/2019/05/01/camus-on-the-absurd-the-myth-of-sisyphus/) than I realised. Like he suggested I chose life when I was suicidal after my mum died and I made this absurd life “my thing” to live as happy as I can despite everything. Glad school made me read him. Even though I am also aware and take for granted a spiritual dimension to my life πŸ˜‡ which he would deny. To me both are true. Life is a lot of strange colours and not black & white… Happy New week despite everything πŸ™‹β€β™€οΈπŸ

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      • Thanks for that link! Very interesting philosophy Camus had, and I had never read of the Myth of Sisyphus, though I had heard of it. A bit of food for thought there … thank you! And I’m so glad that you chose life, and are still fighting so hard to hang onto it, for you have surely added value to the lives of many, my own included! πŸ™‹β€β™€οΈ 😘

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  3. Bee! I wondered why I had not heard much from you… My bad for not reaching you out! I am glad to see you are fighting and smiling though I fully understand how you must feel at times.
    Sending you lots of love and healing vibes. Be well. I have messaged you πŸ’œ

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  4. I’m sending prayers and good thoughts for your healing. May these pains and discomforts soon become things of the past with recovery leaving you free and clear! I love your sense of humor and the brick face in the sand. πŸ™‚

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