Do some topics never change? Maybe I have several lessons still to learn… 😦
A few weeks ago I started “SELF-Awareness Sunday” just to not do it for the next few Sunday’s. I seem to go through a profound change since I have hosted “Love Is In Da Blog“. Not sure why exactly that has kick-started a new cycle in healing but some things just do not need to be explained.
Now I seem to be back more and will keep this meme going because I think it is good to take a look at yourself every now and then. I realised I have not made clear rules/suggestions for taking part in SELF-Awareness Sunday. So I catch up with that now.
SELF-Awareness Sunday rules/suggestions
- write a post about anything that makes you “YOU”: share experiences, show your art, enlighten us with your wisdom… you get the gist
- the exact topic is entirely up to you and the posts are strictly Stream of Consciousness as I believe this way of writing gives you great insights in who you are and what is hidden underneath the surface
- post it to your blog or as a comment on my SELF-Awareness Sunday post and tag it with “SELF-Awareness Sunday”
- If you wrote a post put a ping back link to my “SELF-Awareness Sunday” post so that others can visit yours
- Only post what you really want to share. There are things that come up which are not ready for the world yet. Please respect yourself in that point.
- If anything frightening comes up and you feel like you need help don’t hesitate to get it via your health professional, spiritual guide etc. You can find help-lines here
- Most of all enjoy the ride and trust the process! Your inner self and your gut will tell you exactly where you need to go 🙂
- Now my darlings: go, create and have lots of fun 🙂
I have always been one to do thorough introspection. At times I felt like that is a fault as it can lead to worrying about everything and nothing especially when you suffer from depression. From a very young age on I wanted to become a better person though and that is still who I am.
While doing “Love Is In Da Blog” I realised that my writing seems to have this effect on others as well as many participants allowed themselves to go to places they have not been for a while and it seemed to have given them a healing push. While reading their posts I realised that that was something I would like to do too: To encourage and enable others to become more who they are and to allow themselves to let go of what is bothering them.
Ever since I left school I am wondering what I really want to do for a job and how I really want to earn my money. Working in a supermarket clearly wasn’t on the agenda but well: life makes funny turns :-).
Lately, though I wonder if there is no job description that fits what I have come here to do. Maybe I have to carve out my own path and maybe all I have been through in my life has given me the experience I need. Maybe it has trained me to do this with respect, responsibility and love so I can be a blessing.
Writing this I can’t let go of that “How dare you” – feeling. How dare I think I could help others to become who they are when I still don’t know who I am? When I still struggle with depression, PTSD, negative thinking patterns and self-love. How dare I?
But maybe I have to dare. Maybe “life” is all the training I need and maybe I just have to allow myself to think big. Good grief that is frightening…..