There is a monster in me!
Yes, a real ugly monster. Some prefer to call it “your shadow self” but for me, it is a proper monster.
My boss and my co-workers made sure I had a real easy work day yesterday and all I could think was:”Oh, they just want to show me how slow and bad I work!” Good grief! How can I be so negative?
Well, of course I know I suffer from depression which colours everything negatively but I never realised how much it effects me. This negative thinking pattern becomes more and more clear to me and the more I try to change it the more it expresses itself and I express it out loud. What a moany old goat have I become?
I was and still am disgusted by myself. And guess what? The universe is always up to guide one along and it has a huge amount of humour. It send me this card this morning:
- photo does not exist anymore sorry…
And a friend had send me this video a few days earlier.
Looks like I have my tasks cut out for the next few weeks 🙂 !
This post is part of “SELF-Awareness Sunday” where you can share anything that makes you “YOU” in the way you feel it is worth sharing!